내용은 잘 이해할 수 없지만, 문장은 아름답다.
책에서
새로 빨아 바싹 말린 흰 베갯잇과 이불보가 무엇인가를 말하는 것 같다고 느껴질 때가 있다. 거기 그녀의 맨살이 닿을 때, 순면의 흰 천이 무슨 말을 건네는 것 같다. 당신은 귀한 사람이라고. 당신의 잠은 깨끗하고 당신이 살아 있다는 건 부끄러운 일이 아니라고. 잠과 생시 사이에서 바스락거리는 순면의 침대보에 맨살이 닿을 때 그녀는 그렇게 이상한 위로를 받는다.
당신, 올 수 있다면 지금 오기를, 연기로 지은 저 옷을 날개옷처럼 걸쳐주기를. 말 대신 우리 침묵이 저 연기 속으로 스미고 있으니, 쓴 약처럼, 쓴 차처럼 그걸 마셔주기를.
Read some years ago, and listened the audiobook again.
Am I miserable? No.. I live the peak of the human period, I think.
From the Book
Think for a moment about the Agricultural Revolution from the viewpoint of wheat.
What then did wheat offer agriculturists, including that malnourished Chinese girl? It offered nothing for people as individuals. Yet it did bestow something on Homo sapiens as a species. Cultivating wheat provided much more food per unit of territory, and thereby enabled Homo sapiens to multiply exponentially.
My Saboteur – Hyper-Vigilant
Continuous intense anxiety about all the dangers in life and a strong focus on what could go wrong. Vigilance that can never rest.
from the book
The Judge’s most damaging lie is that we are not worthy of love or respect by just being who we are.
When you examine this lie more closely, you will see that there are actually two lies embedded within it. The first lie is that you can’t be happy with your current circumstances. Much of our unhappiness stems from this lie alone. This lie places a “when” condition on your eventual happiness; it could be when you make your first million, when you get promoted, when you get to run your own company, when you raise the kids and see them off to college, when you achieve retirement security, etc. The second lie is that the “when” is a moving target rather than a promise to be kept. When you do make the first million, the Judge will allow you a two-minute or two-day celebration before it has convinced you that you can’t be really happy until you also have a second vacation home like your best buddy from college. After all, you’re just as smart as she was, and it’s only fair that you have one too, right? The “when” gets renegotiated the moment it is about to be reached. Millions of people die every year still waiting to reach the last “when.” This ever-moving target is a mirage and a key technique the Judge uses to ensure your everlasting unhappiness.
Your distress is not caused by what happened; it’s caused by your Judge’s reaction to it.
Have the courage to be good enough..
외로움과 슬픔
결국은 어쨋거나 모든것이 마찬가지일지도 모른다.
책에서
인간의 몸은 슬픈 것이라는 걸. 오목한 곳, 부드러운 곳, 상처 입기 쉬운 곳으로 가득한 인간의 몸은. 팔뚝은. 가슴은. 샅은. 누군가를 껴안도록, 껴안고 싶어지도록 태어난 그 몸은.
그 시절이 지나기 전에 너를, 단 한 번이라도 으스러지게 마주 껴안았어야 했는데.
Memento Mori
Just live your life.. Why do you care so much about those trivial things?
From the book
Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.